Rest Part II

Praise our good God for showing me truth and teaching me. Through prayer I came to see that by not resting in the Lord I am routinely rejecting a good gift from my Father, ignoring my need for restoration and pridefully carrying on on my own.

No wonder Sabbath is such an important concept in Scripture! God knows that we need it and it is a reminder of our need for God!

I have a confession to make, I am not a good rester.

I desire to become a person who knows how to rest well. Not just for my own health and sanity (though God surely had these in mind when he set up the Sabbath mandate) but in order to practice humility. I desire to practice rest (giving my worries to God and accepting renewal, strength, peace and rest from Him) in order to more fully trust God and in order to live a life that communicates "I really need you God" rather than "I don't need rest, I can do this!" In order to communicate to God "I desire to give my struggles to you recognizing that you can give me wisdom and grace to face the, not ignore them."

I want to trust God and show Him with my life that my hope and stability are found in my knowledge of who he is and what he has done not in who I am and what I can do.

God teach me to rest well. Help me to humbly express my need for you in the way I rest. Help me recieve the renewal you desire to offer to those who come to you. Forgive me for my pride, I need you and can't make an impact in this world without your strength and direction. Help me resolve to work on this and give me the humility to remember this lesson often especially in a world that gives value to self sufficent people who pride themselves on how much they can do without stopping.

Praise God for His work in our lives. I pray that I will continually ask God to transform the weaknesses in my life into opportunities to show His grace and strength.

Rest Part I

It's been a month exactly since I wrote about rest and how I desparately need to learn how to build it into my life. I was in the middle of the craiest week of the semester as far as assignments go and as I sat in our chapel (which was open for prayer and set aside for students to stop and rest before God)

I prayed "God if there is anything that is keeping me from knowing you more or living my life as you want me to please show me and change me."

It is amazing to me how faithful God is when I honestly and humbly pray for him to show me my weaknesses. I am amazed at how specific he is and how loved and not condemned I feel when he puts his finger on something I need to change. When God speaks to me this way and when I experience his love and holiness in the light of my own weaknesses and failures how else can I respond except by humbly wrestling before God with my problem and seeking restoration through him. I have a deep desire to change that I might serve and know him better.

The area that God specifically put on my heart that day was that I often try to live my life in my own strength and then I come to my end (which doesn't take long) and am exhausted (which happened often last semester). I love my work and my life as a student but don't love feeling tired all the time (emotionally and spiritually as well as physically).

God brought to mind a few conversations in the last few months in which I basically told people "I don't rest." I was just resigned to the fact that I have a crazy busy life and that I don't need to slow down.

CONVICTION!! What did I just say that I don't need rest?

I certainly live my life that way sometimes. It is obvious that I need a whole lot of things in my life. It is obvious that I do not have everything under control. But somehow in my pride I was able to convice myself that I'd ask God for strength when I ran out of my own. Ugh! I hate that that was part of my thinking for so long with out me acknowledging it. How arrogant and how dead wrong. I gladly repent of that and chose to accept my utter inability to serve God and live a godly life outside of His strength.

Anticipation...

I just spent over an hour browsing houses online with 4 other girls who I hope to live with next year. We found some really exciting prospects current favorite is a house in the country 15 minutes from campus 1400 sq feet 3 bedrooms 2 bath for $925 a month (divided by 5) bonuses= owner will take care of the yard, includes washer and dryer.



We talked about how I would decorate the house and Heather would cook for us. We talked about doing a Bible study together and getting to know our neighbors...

Are we dreaming? Possibly, but it is fun to dream. :)

New York Pictures

So I know some of you have been waiting for a while. I hope these pictures help you get a feel for the ministry I saw and a bit of the big city. I'll do my best to explain.


The Classic New York City Street


Near Fifth Avenue


Central Park


The New York City Skyline from the Rockefeller Building


Sidewalk Sunday School




Michelle with some of her girls


The Truck


Some Cute Girls on the Bus